not to be cliche but a good person? i know he kills people he cares about without meaning to and I want to have enough control of my power to avoid that i want to help people if i can but not at the risk of losing myself Which he's really bad at
would you know more? i offered to train your other self but was rebuked for my assumption of multiversal constants. but i believe you'd understand my interest in your powers if you allowed me to explain.
tbf to him you were right on the heels of the other billy mentally showing him his family and life as a means of saying they were the same you kind of know why he we wouldn't feel that way now i'd probably react the same way.
i do want to know more i need to because i don't want something like that to happen again but one of the things of the ship is we're regaining our memories? we're regaining our powers, too idk what i have back exactly
but the name stuck out to me because there's a producer that calls themselves demiurge and they were half responsible for a reallg terri le game of guess who
it's a title. a genre of god, if you will there are demiurges across the multiverse. there was a primordial demiurge once, and now there is a demiurge that is yet to be.
at the very least, your powers are connected to the demiurge in some shape or form.
the elder gods were born from the primordial demiurge. amongst them was chthon, the creator of the darkhold. even if you've merely inherited your mother's connection to chaos magic, you ought to know where that magic comes from.
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but for the record, there is no part of the loki that you met that isn't me. i've just grown since then. i'm not a different person.
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i did't think you were. different, i mean. like i'm still
[ a pause like he hesitates to say the names, ]
i'm still billy and william and i'm also still me
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i'm not judging, merely noting the differences in our situations.
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there is more of a distinction from me and you though, right?
because william and billy were different people before the accident
and you've said it: you're always you.
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But i also dont want to make the same mistakes as them
I want to change and grow and live my own life
Isnt that partly what you wanted, too?
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what sort of person do you want to be, phoenix?
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not to be cliche but a good person?
i know he kills people he cares about without meaning to
and I want to have enough control of my power to avoid that
i want to help people if i can but not at the risk of losing myself
Which he's really bad at
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but also
what do you know of your powers?
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not enough
but also enough
i know i can make things happen without truly thinking about it?
like create things and manipulate scenarios and stuff
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would you know more?
i offered to train your other self but was rebuked for my assumption of multiversal constants.
but i believe you'd understand my interest in your powers if you allowed me to explain.
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you kind of know why he we wouldn't feel that way now
i'd probably react the same way.
i do want to know more
i need to because i don't want something like that to happen again
but one of the things of the ship is we're regaining our memories? we're regaining our powers, too
idk what i have back exactly
but why do you have interest?
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your demiurge?
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phrasing it like that makes it sound as if we're partners! how scandalous!
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No
I mean no that's not how I meant it
but the name stuck out to me because there's a producer that calls themselves demiurge
and they were half responsible for a reallg terri le game of guess who
so notable name? not a lot of good feels
What is a demiurge to you
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there are demiurges across the multiverse. there was a primordial demiurge once, and now there is a demiurge that is yet to be.
none of which are my partner btw!
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and you think that's what he'll become
the other billy
and maybe me?
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the elder gods were born from the primordial demiurge. amongst them was chthon, the creator of the darkhold.
even if you've merely inherited your mother's connection to chaos magic, you ought to know where that magic comes from.
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what is chaos magic, exactly?
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something that doesn't follow rules, or at least preset rules doesn't apply to?
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i've always thought of it as possibility, personally.
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