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[restitui]

Including me.

[ He counters, but there's no real energy to it. He wants to exist. They both want to exist. Isn't that how they survived in the first place?

Does he want to stay here? (No, not if it meant leaving Estoria) (Yes, if it was the only way to exist). He'd fought so hard to be this person and he likes this person- ]


[ He presses his eyes closed. Tries lightly, instead, to keep from the hammering of his own thoughts: ]

Is that your way of saying you prefer me?

[meforsaken]

Oh no, nothing like that.

[And realizing that sounds rather rude, they add,]

I have a certain fondness for you, as is to be expected. But I'm also a narrator. I try not to let personal feelings come in the way of my work.

Except for when I do, of course. Remember I told you about that alternate version of me, the one who'd go on to be all evil and rule over Midgard? [Their scepter materializes in their hands and they point to the blue stone set in it.] He's in there. His timeline no longer exists. He could've poofed out of existence. But we worked things out between the two of us.

[restitui]

[ He's not offended, at least, and he mostly listens - considering. Frowning a little before: ]

... I'm not sure how existing only inside a scepter is better than not at all? No offense.

[meforsaken]

It's a metaphor.

[Like yes, he literally is in there, but also it's not like they could pull him out right now.]

I accepted him as part of me, as what I could be. I remember the way he felt, the things he wanted.

We don't know how much Billiam will remember if he does eventually return to this body. If you require assistance preserving your consciousness, I'm offering it.

[restitui]

[ He looks at them like! You pointed at the scepter like he was just in there, how was he supposed to take it? He frowns a little more, glancing away. ]

... and it wouldn't hurt him? Like, he wouldn't just disappear or be overwhelmed or something?

[meforsaken]

I mean, it shouldn't? [The most reassuring answer.] It's possible that your magic will handle the situation without any interference on my end. But I doubt it will do that if you resign yourself to the fate of disappearing.

[restitui]

Reassuring.

[ He laughs in spite of himself and looks up. ] I don't want to disappear.

[ They both knew this. ] ... I don't think he'd want me to, either.

[ This is something they could both also likely get, because existence has been such a theme for them here. ]

[meforsaken]

Then you won't. You're manifesting. Setting your intentions.

[An important thing to do when your magic has the power to shape reality.]

If both of you accept the other, then your magic should do the rest, as mine did. If it doesn't, I'll give the story a helpful push.

[restitui]

I hope that's the case and it's not some trick the Fae want to play on us.

[ Is it weird, he does not think Loki would play a trick on him? Probably! (Not that he thinks they is, but still) ] Thank you, for offering and letting the possibility exist.

[meforsaken]

The fun thing about our magic is that we can play our own tricks in return.

[There's no response to the thanks, instead,]

All my ominous grandstanding about morals and choices aside, the two of you could stand to have fun every once in a while. Enjoy some harmless magic and it'll help remind you that it's not all doom and gloom.

[restitui]

Have you? Actually managed to play tricks on them, I mean.

[ Curiosity, more than anything. The addition earns some mild amusement, more light-hearted: ]

How do you think I got all this down here without a little magick? I use it for clothes mostly, I guess, though.

[meforsaken]

I sent Narciso an exploding magpie.

[And thoroughly called him out as a lonely coward. But the magpie part's more exciting.]

This is practical. As is magic regarding one's wardrobe. There's no mischief to this.

[restitui]

How did that go?

[ More interested in that then anything, but notably - ]

I don't know about him, but I only just began regaining my magic and learning about it. I'm not sure what more mischief I can get into other than hiding the alcohol from Goose.

cw: magic animal death

[meforsaken]

A magpie exploded in his face. Presumably he was then covered in magpie blood.

[He didn't respond to Loki's letter, but the imagery is enough to amuse them.]

You're such an amateur, Phoenix. The amount of mischief I've gotten myself into even when I've had zero magical prowess... Gods, you wouldn't believe it. Magic only sweetens the deal, though.

Re: cw: magic animal death

[restitui]

Gross.

[ please no exploding Maggie's. He rolls his eyes, impudent more than not. ]

My idea of mischief has always been do the exact thing people don't expect of me. Members of the Disorder are usually believed to be troublemakers and bad news.

[meforsaken]

... So you try and be a goodie two shoes instead?

[They can't hide the disappointment in their tone or expression, sorry.]

[restitui]

[ He groans and puts his head to his knees with a mumbled: ]

Don't say it like that.

[meforsaken]

How should I say it? Poor Phoenix's idea of fun is being boring and helpful!

[restitui]

Fashion isn't boring.

[ that's what he's got ]

[meforsaken]

It kinda is.

[And their head shifts to become an oversized cat head that's also wearing Thor's helmet.]

Like compared to this?

[restitui]

[ He startles just a little, not entirely expecting that. ]

How do you just do that on command? That's not even fashion which, I stand by, is really frickin' cool.

[meforsaken]

I want to do it so, I do. Simple as that.

Is it not the same for you? Seeing as you don't have the spoken component to spells like Wiccan does.

[restitui]

I don't know?

[ He says it a little awkward glancing down with a shrug. ] I meant it, when I said I'm still learning about everything. Where I'm from, we've only just started regaining powers from our other life and it's been pretty limited? I know I can change things, obviously, but not like that.

[ and he doesn't know how to use the full scale of billiams or, perhaps, because it's chaos magic he's mentally limiting himself to know what he can do. ]

The other Billy has to speak to cast spells?

[meforsaken]

Your powers shouldn't be limited here.

[Just saying. Loki's very familiar with placing limits on one's self without realizing, though.]

He does. Kinda silly, yeah? He'd have to go all "Becomecatthorbecomecatthorbecomecatthorbecomecatthor..." and so on.

[Yes, they're still saying all this with a giant cat head.]

[restitui]

[ Uncertainly: ]

Then I guess I haven't tried.

[ He's not yet sure he wants to, even with their discussion. And it's easier to avoid it with the silly image in his head as he can't help but look amused. ]

That sounds inconvenient and like getting tongue-tied at the worst possible moment.