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...That must be really scary. Or at least - I'd be really scared, in that position. But if you could find a way to control it, would you want to keep it?

[ Fidgets. ]

I don't know? If I could help people then yeah, I'd want to help people, but also I'd really like to be just normal for a bit. That sounds stupid - But at least for now I need to practice with it every day and it's why I got this -

[ He pulls a book from his pocket and sets it on the ground, ] And I'll figure it out. It'll be okay.

[moving to take his hand]

...If this is making you uncomfortable, we don't have to talk about it right now, you know? But I don't think there's anything wrong with not wanting to have to deal with them at all. You can help people with or without your magic. You've helped me a lot without using it.

[ squeezes his hand ]

I wish I could help more.

[ but after a moment he shakes his head. ]

It's just something we've talked about before and I know it's different because it's not like I had confirmation or know how important it was to my existence or whatever - but it's not something I want to get stuck on more than I have. You and everyone else don't deserve that.

Edited 2025-08-11 22:53 (UTC)

I think you help a lot more than you know.

[squeezes his hand in turn]

And - okay, I'm not going to say you should be stuck on it or anything, but if it's still bothering you, don't feel like you can't talk about it just so I don't worry.

[ offers a small smile, ]

It is going to bother me, but I've got you and a few other people who will help. And at least I know what could happen.

Besides, you're definitely going to worry just like I'm going to worry about you.

[after a pause]

You know you can tell me anything, right?

I know and I do try to tell you most everything, especially now. Not that I didn't try to before and maybe you don't know everything -`

Why do you ask?

[after a moment]

Sorry, I don't mean to push or anything. I just want to make sure you know. And that, you know - if there's something you'd rather not talk about, you can say that, too.

I don't think you're pushing. And I do want to talk about it more sometime, but for now it's okay? I don't want to think about it more right now. I just -

Want a few moments with you, if that's okay?

[ It's not a lie, even if there is some worried thoughts about it still that scatter before he adds - ]

I did need to tell you something, though. Now or later.

[nods, after a moment]

If you want a little while without having to think about anything big, I can definitely do that. But if you want to tell me whatever it is now, that's totally fine, too. Up to you.

It's not big. I mean, it's not existential crisis big and I'd rather tell you sooner than later.

[ but worry!!! ]

Snow kissed me for a bingo square.

It was hardly a second and I didn't return it or anything, but it was needed to finish the card? You weren't around and I wanted to make sure to get this - [ his finger taps the spellbook's cover before he exhales finally: ] Sorry.

Oh.

[a little bit surprised, but only because that's not really what he was expecting - he doesn't seem upset or offended]

That's okay. I know how important it must have been to you to get that back, so if I wasn't around to help and there wasn't another option for the bingo - I don't mind.

It was and I figured you'd agree since it's... like, the only material I know of to learn to control any of it.

[ coloring a touch sheepishly and guiltily ]

Which probably came off so left field, I'm so stupid. [ It is less self-deprecating and more like the oh I'm a dumbass ] But it was only the once and I turned everyone else away and I'd much rather be kissing you, for the record. If that needed recording.

But yeah, that happened, and hopefully it'll help. The book, I mean. We can move on now to other big thoughts or small thoughts.

[ sorry he's embarrassing edit, ]

Edited 2025-08-12 03:50 (UTC)

You are like the least stupid person I know, promise. And I think it's been, um - pretty recorded.

[going a little red as well, but!!]

Actually - while we're on that subject... We totally don't have to right now if you would rather have a little bit of time to relax instead, but I have some vision items I haven't watched yet, if you wanted to go through those with me.

[ huffs a laugh and he might have said something more but he straightens a little at that, ]

Yeah. Of course. If you're up for it - I want to be there for you. [ ... ] And I have the bingo one, if you want to be there for it or hear about the other.

But yours definitely come first.

Of course I want to be there for it.

[giving him an appreciative smile]

They're both in my room - do you want to head over?

Yeah, let's go.

[ Shifts to get up, taking Hoppy off his lap, and offering him his hand, ]

They won't mind a visitor right now, right?

I don't think so. If they do, we can just hang out in my room.

[ nods as he leads them to the door. ]

Just wanted to check, but yeah hanging out in your room is better anyway.

[giving the bunny one last pet as they go! and then off to sun sign yay]

[ off to sun sign they go!!! i'm going to pretend that it's quick because they're all in the same hall anyway. wow, yay, we're at sun sign - ]

Do you know how many you have? Or, how many you want to look at?

[opening up as they get there to let him in]

Just two. Did you just have the one?

[ nodding as he follows along, ]

Yeah, just the one. The last couple have been powers, like when I change the train a little?

Can I ask which specific ones?

[heading back to his room once he's inside]

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