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[restitui]

[ "You don't have to let guilt override your very being," is such a laughably on the nose thing to say to a kid who's literally done that every day for three years. He can't say that - And Loki probably already has that sense anyway. ]

[ So his fingers twist into the fabric of the thumb holes on his sweater for want of something to do. There's no point in apologizing to or consoling Loki, they're not saying that for it. A fact that washes over him quietly as he listens on. ]

[ His mouth twitches onward. ]

There isn't even anything I can do for them. Not really. [ The little monument in Agatha's basement doesn't make up for it at all. He doesn't know how not to feel guilty - he doesn't say that, Loki definitely doesn't know that. ]

I've been trying. [ His hands shift - to not feel guilty, he means. ] It isn't that easy.

[ Obviously, but he wishes he could not feel swallowed whole by it - all of it. ]

[meforsaken]

Don't let their deaths be in vain. You can do that much, can't you?

[By continuing the story, growing as a witch. But,]

I know it's difficult. Trust me, I know.

[They are no longer being crushed by guilt like their past self, but that doesn't mean they've forgotten how it felt.]

I wouldn't suggest taking my approach of a complete ego death, [Loki says with a bit of a laugh,] but part of it does just take time.

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[ Billy nods - quiet and still - of course he can do that. It hasn't felt like enough. None of it has, but he can. ]

[ You can't have an ego death when you barely had one to begin with - No. He tries to laugh anyway, ]

Given all of the Road stuff was practically to find myself as well as Tommy... Doing that would definitely make it in vain.

[meforsaken]

[They smile warmly at his attempt,]

Regardless, I'll have to steal the idea of this Road thing some time. I've just been trapping Thor in pocket dimensions with rune riddles. Sounds lazy in retrospect.

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[ The smile is strained and then falls - ]

I think you know what I have to say to that.

[meforsaken]

I won't kill anyone, promise!

[restitui]

That still doesn't change what I have to say. You have to know that.

[meforsaken]

Fiiiine, I'll just lead a DND campaign instead.

[restitui]

[ yeah don't take his potential player plot from him loki!!! i'm kidding ]

A DND campaign could be fun.

[meforsaken]

I will consider inviting you then. No promises.

[restitui]

You don't have to if it needs consideration.

[meforsaken]

[They roll their eyes,] I'm joking, Billy Kaplan. I've had enough of this sincerity and such.

[restitui]

[ jokingly: ]

Hey, no one said you had to.

[meforsaken]

In the future I shall tell only lies then!

[They give a little pout and open up a portal, gathering up all their goodies to take along with them. Before they leave, they do offer a quick,]

... thank you.

[and then they're gone.]