Mistakes are mistakes. There isn't any "supposed to".
[But they know they're coming at this with the reference point of a god. They've killed plenty of people on purpose, they have no clue how many they might have killed accidentally.
But... to get through to Billy, they'll have to approach this from a more human mindset. So they frown, and let out a sigh.]
... I killed Strange's dog. [Loki does not sound proud of this fact, they don't even sound cooly indifferent or ominous, as they have when speaking of killing their family members. Genuinely, they still feel bad about this.] It was an accident, not something I planned for and not even something done by my hand. The pup had a bad heart and... he got worked up, seeing Stephen and I at it.
But fretting over it, punishing myself for it, it would do nothing. I can't undo what's been done, nor is it something that I can ever make up to Strange, no matter how many tentacle monsters I expel from his house.
So, I did what I could. I cast a spell to give the dog a spectral form. It's not a perfect fix, not by any means, but now Doctor Strange has a very adorable ghost dog who rightfully hates my guts.
You can't ignore it, no, but you don't have to let guilt override your very being. Take it from me, the expert in doing exactly that.
[ "You don't have to let guilt override your very being," is such a laughably on the nose thing to say to a kid who's literally done that every day for three years. He can't say that - And Loki probably already has that sense anyway. ]
[ So his fingers twist into the fabric of the thumb holes on his sweater for want of something to do. There's no point in apologizing to or consoling Loki, they're not saying that for it. A fact that washes over him quietly as he listens on. ]
[ His mouth twitches onward. ]
There isn't even anything I can do for them. Not really. [ The little monument in Agatha's basement doesn't make up for it at all. He doesn't know how not to feel guilty - he doesn't say that, Loki definitely doesn't know that. ]
I've been trying. [ His hands shift - to not feel guilty, he means. ] It isn't that easy.
[ Obviously, but he wishes he could not feel swallowed whole by it - all of it. ]
Regardless, I'll have to steal the idea of this Road thing some time. I've just been trapping Thor in pocket dimensions with rune riddles. Sounds lazy in retrospect.
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[But they know they're coming at this with the reference point of a god. They've killed plenty of people on purpose, they have no clue how many they might have killed accidentally.
But... to get through to Billy, they'll have to approach this from a more human mindset. So they frown, and let out a sigh.]
... I killed Strange's dog. [Loki does not sound proud of this fact, they don't even sound cooly indifferent or ominous, as they have when speaking of killing their family members. Genuinely, they still feel bad about this.] It was an accident, not something I planned for and not even something done by my hand. The pup had a bad heart and... he got worked up, seeing Stephen and I at it.
But fretting over it, punishing myself for it, it would do nothing. I can't undo what's been done, nor is it something that I can ever make up to Strange, no matter how many tentacle monsters I expel from his house.
So, I did what I could. I cast a spell to give the dog a spectral form. It's not a perfect fix, not by any means, but now Doctor Strange has a very adorable ghost dog who rightfully hates my guts.
You can't ignore it, no, but you don't have to let guilt override your very being. Take it from me, the expert in doing exactly that.
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[ So his fingers twist into the fabric of the thumb holes on his sweater for want of something to do. There's no point in apologizing to or consoling Loki, they're not saying that for it. A fact that washes over him quietly as he listens on. ]
[ His mouth twitches onward. ]
There isn't even anything I can do for them. Not really. [ The little monument in Agatha's basement doesn't make up for it at all. He doesn't know how not to feel guilty - he doesn't say that, Loki definitely doesn't know that. ]
I've been trying. [ His hands shift - to not feel guilty, he means. ] It isn't that easy.
[ Obviously, but he wishes he could not feel swallowed whole by it - all of it. ]
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[By continuing the story, growing as a witch. But,]
I know it's difficult. Trust me, I know.
[They are no longer being crushed by guilt like their past self, but that doesn't mean they've forgotten how it felt.]
I wouldn't suggest taking my approach of a complete ego death, [Loki says with a bit of a laugh,] but part of it does just take time.
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[ You can't have an ego death when you barely had one to begin with - No. He tries to laugh anyway, ]
Given all of the Road stuff was practically to find myself as well as Tommy... Doing that would definitely make it in vain.
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Regardless, I'll have to steal the idea of this Road thing some time. I've just been trapping Thor in pocket dimensions with rune riddles. Sounds lazy in retrospect.
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I think you know what I have to say to that.
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yeah don't take his potential player plot from him loki!!! i'm kidding]A DND campaign could be fun.
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Hey, no one said you had to.
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[They give a little pout and open up a portal, gathering up all their goodies to take along with them. Before they leave, they do offer a quick,]
... thank you.
[and then they're gone.]