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Well, aren't you just a little bit dangerous with a capability like that, my friend.

[ he says it as a statement rather than a question. ]

So, what intense feeling do you hear from me? ...Or, are you saying that it's a silence from me that's so loud after being used to hearing from so many?

...To be honest, I don't know if those situations can help me, as I've never experienced any help as a result so far. If anything, I've felt less connected, not more. The more I see others connect here when the connections don't even make any sense and fail at those connections myself, the further disconnected I feel from everything and everyone. Trying and getting nowhere is exhausting for me.

I do admit the concept is fascinating and is a bit of a magic bullet in my mind, in a way, though. But so far, there's no magic bullet for me.

[ Just a little bit dangerous, Sam says and he doesn't know hard that slams into home. The boy drops his hands to his lap and looks away - it's almost enough to hide the flinch. Almost. ]

[ Something bubbles up and he caps it down. He caps it all down into that perpetual stillness that had been creeping up to the surface - ready to cloak and hide in a moment's notice now. He shrugs. ]

It doesn't matter. If you can't hear it, it's hard to explain anyway.

[ A half truth. He could say both. He doesn't. Instead his gaze is trained away from the table, half looking out one of the windows and the leaves slowly fluttering to the ground. ]

You can't force connections. Who someone becomes close to doesn't have to make sense? I won't say it's "fate," but sometimes there are forces that bring people together in that exact moment and even if they don't make sense to the outside it makes sense to them...?

Maybe you're just looking in the wrong places. Or... if you let yourself feel more, you'd find them in the right places?

It's true you can't force them. And you can't try harder to make it work like you want it to.

I'm almost always looking in the wrong places, I'm sure. What do you do when there are no right places?

There's always a right place. You just haven't found it yet.

Hm... all right. I'll keep that in mind.

[ not brushing him off, but of course there is doubt. ]

[ he doesn't need to be a telepath to catch that doubt but anyway ]

Maybe that "right place" is with us? There's a reason you're here, right?

It could be! And that would make coming back to a "murderboat" pretty okay with me in the end.

Think I've already talked more in depth with you about real things than every person on this boat, with the exception of one or two— combined. And you certainly made a far more positive impact in your responses than any of them, too.

[ Amusedly: ]

You'll regret saying that. I'm not even at full power yet.

Haha, maybe! But some superpowers are actually used for the greater good and you seem to be doing just fine so far using them that way~.

[ Another brief pause that he shakes his head. ]

... I just meant that we barely know each other and that I'm not, like, super trying in that regard, y'know?

I do try to ignore things I shouldn't know most of the time.

Oh, I know. Anyone trying to pointedly read my thoughts or emotions through any sort of 'blessed' capability I can sense usually.

Yeah, I don't know how it works but I don't try to use it it just happens...

and whenever the powers that the Ticketmaster tries to return to us happens it'll get worse.

My ability to tell isn't a skill or anything. It's just usually those who try to focus getting into my head disrupt my mental hold on my own Blessings and they go haywire.

But most people are pretty amateur with their blessings and abilities, especially on this boat. It sounds like your vision self is pretty strong.

I think most people are also just coming into them? I didn't know my last blessing until I got here but... I've been this way forever. In any life, I guess.

[ but the rest makes his gaze turn determinedly to the window. ]

... yeah.

[ to "is pretty strong". ]

That bother you?

[ ... he can shrug it off nonchalantly but instead he bites the inside of his lip before breathing out ]

I know a lot about his power and his family and it's - not really good.

His power or his family?

Both.

His power comes from one of his mom's and even though she was considered a superhero... the whole world is pretty afraid of her.

Hm? Did she hurt people?

Yeah, a lot of people.

He has, too. He's killed people he cared about - accidentally - but it still counts.

Mm... power is neither good nor bad, but it can be constructive or destructive.

Even the best of people with the best of intentions can cause harm to others. I think that's less about the power itself, though, and the moral and ethical aspects. So I would try not to look at the power itself as the problem.

[ Did he have the best of attentions? He just wanted Tommy back. He was angry? What did Wanda want -? ]

That's just it -

The power is the problem. Because they can do stuff without actually meaning to without even knowing how they do it- Without -

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[ Without even knowing. ]

[ He takes in a breath sharp and then he just stops. ]

[ He can't know all the details, but he thinks Wanda couldn't have fully mean to make Westview - because why make a family you would inevitably lose? That would crush you? And then- ]

[ He didn't know how he came back. He didn't expect to bring Tommy back but Agatha knew and - ]

[ The thing in Agatha's basement. The names. If he was right Sharon was poisoned (he didn't have access to poison). Alice was killed by Agatha - he saw that he knew then why? He doesn't know what happened to Lilia. But he suddenly realizes that weight: He killed them. Whatever the portal symbolized was his fault it was - ]

[ You really are a Maximoff, otherwise none of this would be nearly as dramatic, she's said and he gets up then - rocking the chair back as he takes another breath. ]

Oh.

Oh no.

...You okay?

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